Over on the Survivors News and Review blog, we’ve setup a page for you to submit your own review of books, documentaries, movies, etc. that you have found really helpful. Naturally, there are rules about what can be submitted, but if you have something to share with the survivor community and don’t want to be bothered going and creating your own blog, submit a review and we’ll consider sharing it!
The wife and I are spending a couple of days celebrating Thanksgiving at the Oregon Coast. It’s been a bit crazy here since we made the move and with her working on this coming Saturday thanks to the Oregon-Oregon State football game, (aka the Civil War Rivalry), I’m thinking a couple of quiet days are just what we need right now.
I’m thankful for the opportunity to spend this time together. I’m also reminded that as crazy as it’s been, I’m thankful for the adventure. Life can change around you pretty quick when you let it, and it can be pretty exhausting at times. But it’s also pretty interesting too. I can honestly say that before this year, the idea of living in Oregon had never really occurred to me. But now we’re here, and while being all the way across the country from our families and friends is difficult, we’re also very thankful for the modern technology that makes it so easy to keep in touch with the people we love, even when we can’t be with them physically.
Of course, as I’ve said many times, that same technology not only has allowed me to keep in touch, it’s also allowed me to “meet” so many people through my websites, social networks, and other groups. I hope, especially with this site, that coming across the stuff I share from my adventures, has helped you in some way. If it has, then I’m truly thankful for that, even if I don’t know about it. What the point in sharing if not to educate, comfort and inspire others when we can?
Whatever you are doing this holiday weekend, at least for those of us in the US, spending it with family, spending it avoiding a dysfunctional family, working, resting, traveling, etc. I hope that you can find some time for yourself, to recharge and enjoy the scenery along the way!
I saw this quote in a local news story about a sexual assault that occurred involving a couple of players from the Oregon State football team 16 years ago. They were spoken by the victim in the case, then-24 year old Brenda Tracy.
Now, I don’t normally get into assault and violence against adults on this site. Not that it doesn’t bother me, but this site is about child abuse survivors and I don’t want to have to start writing about every case of violence that occurs. There’s just not enough time in my life for that, so I try to stay focused. I’m not making an exception here because, as it turns out, Brenda was a victim of child abuse prior to ever being in this situation:
Tracy said she was sexually abused as a minor, up until age 5 by a family member, then again at 9 by a neighbor. She has not talked publicly about the earlier incidents. And while it’s the practice of The Oregonian to not name victims of alleged sexual assault, Tracy insisted she be identified here.
“I’ve spent all this time trying to prove to the world that I belong here,” she said. “That it’s OK to take up space, that I’m not garbage.”
As a young woman she found herself in abusive relationships, a partner to men who were volatile, angry and dangerous. She’d been emotionally and physically abused. She remembers wearing a turtleneck in the summer once to cover bruising on her neck after being choked by a boyfriend. The father of her children was incarcerated, first for drugs, then a Measure 11 sentence for robbery. She was prey, and the predators often found her.
“My self-esteem was gone,” Tracy said. “I didn’t think I was worth anyone really loving me.”
This is how childhood abuse plays out in adulthood for many people, male and female. The abuse becomes an ingrained part of how we see ourselves, believing that it was deserved. As adults, why would we believe we deserve anything else?
If you never get out of seeing yourself as a victim, your adult life may not look much different than hers. If you can get past that though, and start to understand that you are not garbage, that you have value and have a contribution to make, then you can overcome. You can stop being a victim, and become a true survivor.
I linked to this yesterday on Twitter, Tumblr, and Facebook, but I wanted to also add it to this post. The Psych Central website has listed their Top 10 Depression Blog of 2014. I have to admit that there are a few on there I’ve never read, but I will definitely be checking them out!
Do you have a favorite depression blog not listed there?
Also, I wanted to share a Mashable article I saw as well. Titled 3 Free Games That Can Help You Cope And Understand Depression it goes on to talk about three video games with depression as the central theme. I’ll let the author, Matthew Hughes explain:
The UK’s Office of National Statistics says that one in five British adults suffer from depression. It’s an epidemic of massive proportions, comes with a massive societal impact, with depression costing the European economy almost 118 million Euros in lost worker productivity and expenditure on treatment.
It’s not just a feeling of sadness. It’s not laziness. It’s a complex, confusing mental illness that impacts people in different ways. It can pull you into a spiral of numbness, anxiety, hopelessness and apathy, and make the simplest things like getting out of bed feel like an excruciating effort.
So, where do games come into this? Games – like any other genre of popular culture – can help us understand complex issues. Complex issues like depression and mental health. Don’t believe me? Here are 3 that walk you through what it’s like to suffer from depression, or give you helpful strategies for coping with it.
Now, I’ve never been a big gamer so I’m going to reserve judgement on whether video games can help. I’m willing to admit that anything that helps is a good thing, and if there are folks out there who are helped by playing these games, I’m glad they exist! I don’t think they’d be for me, but that’s just the point, they aren’t for me. Maybe they are for someone else.
Have you played any these games? What do you think?
The latest episode of the Survivor Stories podcast, featuring Ben Glade and Annaka Vimahi, brought home two important things to know about child abuse:
1. How deep does the secrecy surrounding child abuse run? A brother and sister, 4 years apart, have no idea they were both being abused until they were in their thirties.
Think about that. When we talk about child abuse being a secret epidemic, this is a prime example. Abusers groom kids and do everything they can to keep them silent. Survivors grow up and face all kinds of stigma, so they keep silent, and the cycle just continues. The only way out is to keep talking, and let kids being abused, and adult survivors, know that they aren’t alone.
2. Survivors truly are all around us. We just don’t talk about it and therefore we don’t know how many people right in front of us can identify with what we are dealing with. We need more survivors willing to identify themselves and let it be known that they survived, and have overcome, childhood abuse.