there was no hope
only blackness and pain
I would lie awake at night
and ask God to take my life
but God was not giving
and gave no answer
Some think he did
and that I disagree
with the answer that
He was willing to give
Maybe they are right
wanting to die may be wrong
or maybe what’s wrong is life.
If this is life, this abyss
of pain and suffering
then how could God
want me to stay and live?
Why must I stay?
Why am I still here?
I don’t know the answer,
but I lay and wait
for the day will come
when I will feel a purpose
or at least some worth.
all I want now is this:
to make a difference
someday, someway
and take the suffering
of someone’s world away.
by: Mike McBride 11/5/97