Comments on: Book Review: Cry Silent Tears http://www.childabusesurvivor.net/wordpress/2008/05/28/book-review-cry-silent-tears/ About a male survivor of childhood abuse, and the issues he faces in adult life. Mon, 17 Jun 2013 15:15:03 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.5.1 By: Mike McBride http://www.childabusesurvivor.net/wordpress/2008/05/28/book-review-cry-silent-tears/comment-page-1/#comment-572 Mike McBride Fri, 30 May 2008 20:40:52 +0000 http://childabusesurvivor.net/wordpress/2008/05/28/book-review-cry-silent-tears/#comment-572 Thank you for sharing your story, I do hope that it does help you find some solace, and some comfort in knowing you’re not alone!

]]> By: ClinicallyClueless http://www.childabusesurvivor.net/wordpress/2008/05/28/book-review-cry-silent-tears/comment-page-1/#comment-571 ClinicallyClueless Wed, 28 May 2008 21:48:04 +0000 http://childabusesurvivor.net/wordpress/2008/05/28/book-review-cry-silent-tears/#comment-571 The title caught my eye because that is what I say to my therapist that I only cry silent tears, but he tells me that isn’t crying. This book sounds so heartwrenching. I know I cannot handle it, but looking at how young the boy on the cover is along with the title triggered me. From what I’ve been able to piece together, I stopped crying as an infant because I would get smothered, hit or pinched. All of a sudden, I feel like I need to be heard. I hope it is okay to tell you a small portion of my life.

Between the ages of 5/6- 8/9, my sadistic narcissistic step-father and his father at first forced me to have sex with them and other men in my step-father’s bedroom. It also included sodomy, oral sex and beatings with a belt or antenna and being tied or held down.

Then, when it moved into the garage it was usually one or the other and just two other family members. But, included crawling things, objects, strangulation, beatings, sodomy, oral sex, genital beatings, popsicles and ice into both openings. All while being tied down for hours and with no clothing.

At six years old I remember my step father putting a knife up to my neck and reminding me that he could kill me whenever he wanted to and no one would know or care. He continued the verbal abuse and humiliation until he moved out when I was 21. My borderline mother who wouldn’t get out of an abusive relationship used to constantly warn me to watch what I do and say because he could kill me.

I’m not sure I’m glad I shared it, but I think it kinda feels good…if I wasn’t so numb and going away. Thanks for listening and I hope it didn’t trigger anyone.

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