Deep Thoughts

I was looking through some of the tech blogs I normally read, when I discovered something that touched that part of me that struggles with depression and self-esteem issues. It was this post on “Just Another Geek’s Blog that touched me: “When the realization hit that I was ‘happy with myself’ for that one moment…

In a funk

I don’t know what’s been going on the last few days. I don’t feel really good physically, but I don’t have any real “sick” symptoms. I’m easily irritated, have little patience for anything, don’t seem able to focus for very long, have lost interest in a lot of things, and just generally feel very “blah”…

From a comment

Someone left this in a comment: I’ve found that feeling nothing is *usually* worse than being happy and sometimes having it taken away. You know, that’s something that doesn’t get talked about a whole lot, but I would like to discuss further. Yes having emotional pain is terrible, and can be quite unpleasant, to say…

Struggles

One of the common struggles for me is the feeling I have that no matter how happy I am right now, I’m inevitably going to do something eventually to screw it up and lose that happiness. That no matter how much someone loves me, I’m always “this” far away from not having it any longer….

What excites you?

I’m thinking today about what really excites me. What really makes me feel alive. Two things leap to mind, one the love of my wife, and the other learning something new. I get totally jazzed and excited when I start to talk to people and share ideas and learn from our conversations. I really feel…