Struggles

One of the common struggles for me is the feeling I have that no matter how happy I am right now, I’m inevitably going to do something eventually to screw it up and lose that happiness. That no matter how much someone loves me, I’m always “this” far away from not having it any longer. I suppose it’s a learned behavior from years of not being happy, or being disappointed by people, but how do you change what is, essentially, a feeling?

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