I know in my heart the pain will slowly fade if you want to do the work. You have to do the work, and even after doing the work you might never feel “fixed.” We can heal. We can put bandages over the wounds that come off in time, and the wound won’t be so big or sore. You’ll be happier, or even a little content for having trusted in yourself. There are going to be good days, and there are going to be bad days.
Trust in yourself. Trust in the process.
It truly is a process. So many people dealing with depression wait for the moment it is “fixed” and everything is better, but that’s not how it works. We learn new skills, and we apply them, and we find things that work, and things get better, in time. But you have to trust it.